I don't know what to say..


I miss him so much.
He wouldn't wanna give it a try for the last time.
He seriously is giving up on me..
I want to give up..
But, I feel like don't wanna give up yet.
I felt like, It's not the end yet.
I miss him. I really do.
Friends around me used to say,
" You deserve someone better, than him, who only know how to hurt you "
True, but I don't know why, I just can't get him out of my mind...
He's the first one I ever think of when I wake up,
he's also the one I think of when I'm about to fall asleep.

He's there, in me.
I don't wanna let this love go.
This relationship that is going to die.
I want to save it.
What am I thinking?

So stupid... stupid.
He may not be 'the one' for me, but I certainly know that he's the only one that I want.
Even though we've never meet before, even though we rarely talk on phone, I will still love you.
If you're willing to start all over again, I'm willing to change.
If you're willing to put effort in this relationship again, I'm willing too.

We've only seen each other on webcam. Doing silly poses,faces.
You've seen all my imperfections, you've seen me in my naked face, you've seen me with all my hair tied up, you've seen all the ugly side of me.
And you're the only one who accepted for the way I am.
I admitted I've made you disappointed a lot of time. I know it myself too.
I'm sorry. I'm just lonely.

I miss your phone calls, I miss your voice, I miss us laughing on the phone.
I'm sorry, for my temper, again. I'm sorry for my insecurities.
I'm just afraid you'd get bored of me, I'm afraid that you'd leave me for a better girl.
Blocking you on Facebook/MSN, it doesn't help at all.
End up, I'm the one who go back to you.

I'm sorry for everything, I don't want to force you.
I'm sorry....
I wish things will go back to where it was when we're so happy together.
Calling each other 'baby' and 'silly'.

I love you, KYY.